Today's challenge: be less perfect. You would think I would have a lot of experience with that. And I do, sort of. The difference between the usual imperfection and this challenge is that I'm actually going to post this. Regardless of whether it is brilliant or insightful or relevant or interesting or competent or even decipherable. That said, I'm still going to spell check decipherable.
I have about 6 posts sitting unpublished. Some of them are interesting, some are rambling, and all are half finished and cause me endless annoyance. I want them to reflect my deepest thoughts. I want them to be fun and witty and capture attention and imagination. I want people to pause after reading them to think, to question... and, perhaps, just maybe, to marvel at my brilliance.
Shut up. I can dream. You can't stop me. I have a vibrant imagination within which I can make you all fascinated by me. Some of you will send me gifts. Like candy. And ponies. Although, I'll settle for getting a few more hits on my blog.
I have an anxiety disorder. As some strange case of cause and effect entanglement with this: I am also a perfectionist. Sort of. In effect, I quickly realize I am imperfect and give up. It seems easier. That's why I haven't posted anything in forever. I can't make my writing perfect. But, I can only put it off so long before my therapist beats me to death with a tissue box for avoiding action. She probably would not do this, but imagining it is fun.
I really want to work on Fisty Cuffs, the short story I posted about the little girl trying to be a super hero. I made it so incredibly complex that now I'm having trouble breaking it down. It would work better as a comic book, but that would put even more pressure on me. I do have bios created for a dozen characters I want to work in. I have settings and plots. I even conferred with my brother who is brilliant at that kind of stuff and got some great ideas. Now, only one thing remains: procrastinating. I can do it. Have faith in my ability. This is where I am a viking. First step: playing Facebook games. Marvel: Avengers Alliance, here we come!
